Get out of the corner.

The GMAT is done and I can finally get my nose out of those books.

I'll be honest: I didn't do so hot.
In fact, I was average.
Ordinary.

It didn't help that when I got home and told my dad my score, he replied, "I thought my daughter was smart!"

I did, too, Dad.

I put myself in the corner and "punished" myself for my performance (talk about dysfunction).

What was I punishing myself for? I worked hard, prepared, studied and did my best the day of. The test score doesn't define me. So why was I letting it get to me?

As humans, we yearn for something to tell us who we are, what are strengths are, where we belong.
If we're not careful, we end up putting ourselves in a corner that we don't deserve in the first place.

My chains are gone
I've been set free

                                                    My God, my Savior has ransomed me

And like a flood His mercy rains

Unending love, Amazing grace

Walk away from the corner.

What do you put yourself in a corner for?

The GMATs. (dun-dun-duuuunnnn)

All my life, I've thought of myself as a smart kid.

NO MORE. 


Because I'm officially too dumb to pass the GMAT on my own!
Darn my religious-undertone-filled liberal arts education! It did not prepare me for a mundane test full of numbers and words I've never seen before!

I took a practice exam and nailed the English/Reading section (of course) but then proceeded to miss more than half of the math questions. And duh, I don't need to practice the essay portion. I can write my way to Canada. But now, I continue to miss about half of the practice questions I try!

And so, since I'm not about to spend money on a test that tells me how much I'm not ready for business school, I'm now spending hard-earned cash on a month-long course that will teach me what I need to know for the GMAT. And then, once they teach me "all I need to know," I will spend even more money to take the test that lets me be considered for a spot in grad school this fall.

Great.

Does the bitterness bleed through your computer screen?