04 March 2012

For Big Mistakes

I was at the doctor Friday morning and the nurse had an eraser like the one above on her desk.

At this moment, I wish I had one. But instead for pencil, I need one for life.

I'm having one of those multiple hand-to-head moments that concludes with yelling silently, "WHY DID YOU DO THAT?!?"

It's just one those days where I'm constantly churning the details about what I did, how I did it, and WHY.

WHY CAN'T I BE NORMAL?! (insert whining and slow death) 

I hope I'm not alone. That you've had similar situations in life where you could tell yourself to stop talking. That you could do something over again and you promise to yourself that you'd do it differently.

So how do you deal with that? The internal battle of "if I could just go back."

I'm thinking out loud but I'm guessing there's acceptance involved. And hope that if it's meant to be, you'll have another chance. And if it's meant to be, the mistakes will be accepted and nervousness, excitement, maybe even thought of as "cute"? Possibly farfetched but I'm optimistic.

I'm praying that the feeling will subside and I'll look at the past situation for what it is and do all that I can do. Give it up to the Man above. 

Any advice? Pity? Words of consolation?

Note to readers: I hope you laughed at least once. 


  1. Hey Nincy,

    I like your blog. I'm sorry about your cholesterol, but I am happy that you aren't lactose intolerant anymore.

    When I have a problem, or when I need to find peace in my life, I meditate. Sometimes I say mantras from Islam, other times I say the Om Shanti mantra. Sometimes I just focus on emptying my mind. Three times a week, I try and run. All in all, I remember that in the expanse of my life, this moment is only a blip. I have way to much to be thankful for and love.

    I have a letter for you from last Founders Day. Maybe you, Erica and I can go to lunch soon?


  2. Thanks, Kat! Yeah, we should. :)